Reflecting on My Faith

Since coming to the U.S. in August 2022, whether those first two years in Los Angeles or now in Dallas, my faith has been up and down, mostly low. Outwardly, everything seems fine; life seems to be on track. Maybe that’s why I feel faith isn’t that crucial, thinking it won’t really fall apart, so I’ve just let it slide.

In these two years, I haven’t stopped attending church. I still go every Sunday. But, honestly, I haven’t truly sought God with all my heart, nor have I gone all out to draw near to Him. As for serving God, I haven’t fulfilled my responsibilities or put in the effort I should have. I must confess this.

Now, I’ve hit a spiritual low. I feel I need to change. I need to make a decision: If I truly believe in Jesus Christ, if I’ve really experienced His presence and grace, then I must change this lukewarm state.

I want to take my faith seriously, sincerely pursuing God — with all my heart, soul, and mind, running this race with all my resolve.

Conversely, if this faith seems optional to me, then I shouldn’t live in this ambiguity. I might as well leave.

So, it’s time to make a choice.