What Am I Supposed to Do?

From being a college graduate in my twenties to now entering middle age, there’s been a persistent question that pops up from time to time, puzzling me, with no ideal answer ever found. That question is: What exactly should I be doing? (To put it more elegantly: What’s my dream? And in a Christian context: What’s God’s calling for me?)

My current environment and state of mind are quite different from those early years. Even though I’ve always had a streak of idealistic stubbornness and never forced myself to do things I didn’t want to do, now it seems I really want something “to settle down in.” Maybe I overemphasize this, perhaps unknowingly turning it into a bit of an idol. But I can’t deny that’s my current thought.

I’m not going to dwell on whether this aligns with God’s will. From a basic understanding and experience, the key isn’t what you choose to do. The key is living each day of faith well as you make and engage in those choices.

It must be something I’m interested in (an industry). Besides design, I also have interests in: painting, cooking, writing, and crafts.

I don’t need to focus too much on short-term financial returns. The premise is to carefully control living costs. But in the long run, this should accumulate value. Plus, it shouldn’t be limited by age — even in my sixties or seventies, I should still be able to do it (it looks like painting, writing, and cooking meet this standard).

I hope this pursuit allows interaction and communication with the outside world, especially for someone like me living relatively isolated in the United States.