Human Pride vs God's Glory
I’m a person both insecure and proud. Years ago, when I first realized these seemingly opposite traits coexisted in me, I was amazed. At that time, I was already following Jesus. Upon further reflection, I saw that insecurity hid pride, and pride concealed insecurity. But at the core, it’s all pride.
“Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.” (Proverbs 16:18, NIV)
My heart is so full of pride, trying to showcase myself at every chance, to prove my ability and worth, seeking others’ recognition, admiration, and praise. This is the corruption and sin within me.
Whenever I decide to do something, even if it’s meaningful and beneficial to others, I almost always fall into serving my own pride. I fantasize about the glory and honor after success. At this point, I’ve quietly been taken over by evil without knowing it.
Following this “serving my pride” leads to worry, timidity, doubt, and weakness. After dreaming of “glory after success,” naturally, I start to worry, “what if I fail?” What will others say? Will they ridicule me? Think less of me? Gradually, I lose courage and start doubting myself—am I capable enough? In this way, a wonderful idea or perhaps a great plan dies prematurely, killed by my human pride.
The opposite motivation is for God’s glory.
I believe, by myself, I can’t generate a “for God’s glory” motivation. Whenever my heart leans towards fulfilling personal pride, a small yet powerful “voice” reminds me: for God’s glory (though I hesitate to use “voice” because it can be misunderstood). After experiencing this many times, I’ve slowly realized this reminder doesn’t come from within but from the Holy Spirit dwelling in me.
When I choose to act “for God’s glory” (even though I don’t always have the strength to choose so), the worries, timidity, doubt, and weakness brought by “fulfilling my pride” all disappear. They’re replaced by hope, courage, determination, and strength. I feel lifted from an invisible shackle, suddenly relaxed and free.
I no longer need to achieve something to prove my worth; my worth is in God’s hands. Even if I don’t do it, my value in God’s eyes remains unchanged. I view my abilities realistically. God knows my strengths; He knows my lacks. I ask God to use me, an unworthy vessel, to grant me the wisdom, ability, and strength needed to accomplish His will. My goal is no longer for personal benefit. What I hope for is to help and build others through this— even if it’s only a little bit or for only a few people.
“In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.” (Matthew 5:16, NIV)