Why Is Faith So Hard?

Why can’t I read the Bible as regularly and easily as I eat meals? I really can’t live by food alone. Food satisfies the body’s needs; the Bible is food for the soul.

Why do I need to spend an hour and a half each week doing one-on-one Bible study, beyond Sunday services?

Why do I have to prepare so much for Christmas every year? If I truly understand Jesus, deeply feel His love, and really love Him, then spending time on Christmas should be sweet, right? Why does it feel like a burden?

Why do I always want to do things to prove myself? Maybe it’s from deep-seated insecurity inside. But can’t God give me these things?

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Honestly, my values haven’t changed. I still rely on myself (relying on myself means being far from God).

I find it hard to imagine someone doing a backstroke without moving their arms or legs can float on the surface. I can’t trust the buoyancy of the water to support my heavy body; I lack faith.

It’s the same with God. How should I entrust things to Him?

I feel I’m not free inside.

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Also, what is work for? Why start a business? Why pursue more money?