Helpless

My aunt sent my cousin to Hangzhou, hoping I could have some influence on him. Faced with a nineteen-year-old who is absorbed in fantasy novels, has poor self-control, and has been a constant headache for his parents, I initially had some “education plans.” But soon, I felt helpless. Changing a person is so hard.

I told Yanbing, if I had a son like that, what would I do? Maybe I would’ve given up already.

Deep down, I really started to give up, at least I didn’t think I could change anything about him or have any positive influence. But I know my aunt hasn’t given up on him, despite years of disappointment. And I also know God hasn’t given up on him either, no matter how troublesome my cousin is, he’s still His son, just like me. Honestly, thank God, because my cousin is still very naive. Besides his obsession with novels and lack of direction, there’s nothing seriously wrong.

Right now, the only thing I’m sure of is, if he can be changed, only God can change him. Other than praying, what else can I do? Although lately, after a week of continuous prayer that didn’t entirely fulfill my requests, I’ve had deep complaints against God, even ignoring His presence.

I know, my cousin is a lesson for me.