Life Lately
These days, I rarely write blog posts. At my age, there’s less room for feeling “sentimental.” Just living.
Here’s some news: my wife, Yanbing, is pregnant. God willing, I’ll be promoted to fatherhood by next February.
Since she’s pregnant, I’ve taken over almost all the house chores. The classic house husband. It’s a bit tiring, but it’s a happy tiredness.
We usually wake up around 6 AM (because we sleep early). Once we wake up, we just lie there and chat. My wife is beautiful. Haha. We’ll talk about anything—my stress, my mood, what I’m doing today. People need to communicate to live; and my wife is the best conversation partner. When we talk about my stress, my burdens, my frustrations, whatever’s bothering me, we share a smile and it all fades away.
I thank God. Home is a warm harbor, and I feel that deeply now.
I’m honestly feeling quite stressed about the future. With the baby coming, the financial burden will increase a lot. So, I’ve been diving headfirst into the material struggle. I’m also planning a gift website, hoping to get it running before the baby arrives. Consider it a gift for the kid. Haha.
Lately, I’ve gained weight. Eating more, eating well, moving less. So, yes, sticking to exercise is a must.
About design:
I still feel like I’m just a beginner. I truly don’t understand design.
What is design? How do you start designing? How do you grasp the process? How do you communicate? Should you stick to or abandon dissent? Based on what? What’s the path for design? In this profession, what’s my direction? How do I proceed? Is there a sense of accomplishment? Do I really love design, or do I just love the income it brings?
Every time I see Yi Zong update his work, I feel ashamed, inferior, and guilty. He truly loves calligraphy and traditional painting. But me, what do I love?
Lately, my life is mostly packed with foreign orders and project planning. I haven’t touched a paintbrush or noted any design or artistic ideas for over a month. It’s a little depressing.
Life and death, they’re things I’ve always thought about, willingly or forced. Life is so amazing. Death is wonderful. God’s creation is absolute.
Because there’s death, life is finite. Since it’s finite, it’s worth cherishing. How do you make sure not to waste this journey that is a finite life?
God is amazing; faith is amazing, too. Faith gives me freedom, inner freedom. Faith gives me eternal life.
When lying in bed talking to my wife, I often ask her, will we be together forever? She says yes. I think so too. If you don’t believe in eternal life, how empty must life be!