Let Me Be Cruel This Once

Maybe I should have made this decision sooner. Even though I regret it a lot afterwards and find myself seeking comfort and relief by talking to friends, honestly, this is good for both of us. Selfishly speaking, it’s good for me. I can completely leave 2005 behind and not let it have even the slightest impact on my life now. Maybe I’m not strong enough. I hope you’re doing well.

Lately, or rather for the past six months, life has been a mess. I’ve been thinking about one question: What am I living for? Even though my family, friends, and coworkers are all great and things are going well, I still feel an overwhelming emptiness. I’m sure I can find the only answer through faith, through Christ, but my stubborn nature keeps me from submitting to God.

Sin continues.

What kind of life should I live? What’s the direction of my life? How can this kind of life continue?

I’m sorry. I hope we can both be strong. I hope one day we can become plain friends.